This morning was a bit different. I didn't eat anything because I didn't want any problems. I drank the sugar drink, waited an hour, then had my blood drawn. She took a quick check of my blood and said it was really high, that I wouldn't event need the 3-hour test but there was a chance the other blood work would come back differently and to talk to my doctor.
I decided to get myself a CinnaBun before my other appointments. Probably stupid, but I thought that I didn't officially know I had diabetes yet, so I might as well have one last splurge for a while. And let me tell you, it was good.
Next, I had an ultrasound because they were concerned at my 20 week appointment that my placenta was too low. At least this had corrected itself. And I got to see Sweet Pea again and I was able to see a 3d image of her. I have never had a 3d ultrasound done before, so this was the highlight of my day. Her little face was so precious, although she kept covering her face. She looked so much like Brecken.
Sweet Pea - She is partially covering her face
Brecken as a newborn... see he resemblance?
I am now worried about so many things. The diet really scares me. They told me a little bit of what I need to stay away from or limit - sweets (what I crave ALL the time!), cereal, anything processed, fruit, cheese, yogurt, ice cream, milk, carbs - breads, ect. Umm... so what do I eat? Vegetables and protein. Well this will be a fun two months. I have an appointment on Thursday with a dietician and to get trained how to check and monitor my blood sugar. Once I know all the details, then I can make a plan and stick to it, just right now I have no idea what is a danger and what isn't. They won't know if I need to go on medication/insulin until I have been monitoring my levels.
Another thing that scares me is the labor and health of the baby. If I have to go on medicine or baby gets too big, I will have to be induced. C-section was brought up today as well. This makes wanting to try another natural birth difficult. With the diabetes present in the mom, babies can get alot bigger, especially growing more in their shoulders and chest making labor more difficult. Depending on how my body responds to the new diet, there will be more ultrasounds to see how she is growing. Babies
can have other health risks and complications with the mother having diabetes. It is all just so scary and my head is spinning with the what-ifs.
God had the timing down of this news, because tonight I had a prayer shower with some of the ladies I work with at the preschool. I shared my concerns and they lifted me up in prayer. They were such a blessing and I felt peace as they were lifting me and the baby up in prayer.
So, this is not exactly how I had planned my day to go but things don't always go as planned. The next couple months holds many unknowns but HE knows.
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still"